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Wanting to Be a Father

2011-09-16T04:22:00.000-07:00

I want to be a father. Yes, a dad. This may sound like 'not me' but yes, it seems surreal but it's nice. I have been in this relationship for more than a year, and for more than a year we have been trying to have a baby. But it seems that we can't get it right and just a few minutes ago that she had her period just. She's been delayed for a week, but my hope was shattered once again by that text. Are we doomed?

Now I see you, then I don't

2011-05-29T03:24:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I am bitter of what, but why do I have this feeling that a friend of mine is distancing himself from me. Why all of a sudden? Hmm am I a bad influence to him that suddenly he becomes aloof towards me? You know the signs, and I know the signals. There was a time when we constantly meet up and have drinks every now and then. But for the past 2 months, I heard nothing from him. Back then, he was the one who text and send me a message. This must be something, and I am a bit hurt by this. Not to sound arrogant, but I'm the better person than him in many respects. But hey, that's life they say. People change, and he did. And I must continue.

Where are you going?

2009-04-07T18:01:00.000-07:00

So where are you going, are you ready to stay this way for the rest of your life? Of course you need to set the direction and you have to have your own plan, otherwise you will be stuck in the moment. This reminds me a conversation with a friend of mine three days ago and he said that he is giving himself until the end of the year to decide. When the year has elapsed with no great opportunity coming his way, then he will try his luck in Singapore. So what about me, where am I headed to?

Badtrip

2008-09-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

My two friends just left the house. We downed some drinks and had some fun and heated discussions. Fun topics were all about the songs that defined our high school years and some experiences during that time. Heated talks in a sense that when I shared my so-so life, I got some mean deal from my friend. We've been friends for so long and now I learned his impression of me. In fact he belittled me for being a person of who fall for things easily. The intention why I shared the story and my experience was to get some cool sympathy and suggestions but what I've got from him was an attitude that I didn't expect. Well at least, I've known him now..not later, not tomorrow. Sorry, at least I've known you know, what you are. You will be there for fun, and not for serious matters.

Kafka by Murakami on stage

2008-09-26T02:28:00.001-07:00

There is now a stage version of the Kafka on the Shore novel by Haruki Murakami. In fact the world premiere of the stage play was launched September 18 this year and this play was made as the initial play for the launching of the Steppenwolf Theater Company's 2008-09 Season. The production featured Francis Guinan and John Michael Hill with Christine Bunuan, Gerson Dacanay, Mary Ann de la Cruz, Christopher Larkin, Aiko Nakasone, Andrew Pang, David Rhee and Lisa Tejero. Hmm from the looks of it, at least three could be Filipino names. Are they Filipinos? The show's stsory was summed up in these lines;

A young boy's coming of age parallels an old man's search for destiny in modern day Japan where the borders between everyday reality, dreams and imagination are constantly crossed. In this world premiere adaptation of the popular novel, encounter talking cats on the streets of Tokyo, World War II soldiers trapped in time, Colonel Sanders and Johnnie Walker. Experience the unexpected in this fantastical tale about waking up to your own life.

The play that was based on the Haruki Murakami book was developed as part of Steppenwolf's New Play Initiative.

The trouble with SMS-based relationships

2008-09-26T02:14:00.000-07:00

Imagine my surprise when I received a text message from her, informing me that she's ending a relationship. What relationship? Well she was talking about our relationship propagated thru countless text messages. I know this may sound lame, but yes I have a text friend for more than a year. She was the one who listened when I needed company, okay not exactly listened but you know what I mean.

So there, just last night after the writer's night-out, I received that text message. I don't know what to say, the feeling that I felt last night was a mix of sadness and relief and I don't know why. By the way, still on job-hunting mode. Still a content writer for many blogs and sites and still searching for more freelance sites. At least now, I have a direction and by next sem, I should be submitting my CV to local colleges here in the city. I want to teach Social Sciences, Management or Public Administration and hoping that I get good grades this semester.

Job hunting, government style

2008-08-20T01:53:00.000-07:00

Just last week I received an email from my eskwela groups that one government agency is in need of at least three budget analyst. When I checked on the email, I learned that the email was sent three days before. So I was late in reading the email. But then I tried applying and sent a copy of my resume to the person who posted the job opening. Good thing, the lady responded and she mentioned that she forwarded my email to the HR department of the government office. Until now, haven't received a word that I'm up for an interview. It's been two weeks now, so I guess this one will not work out for me and its time again to look for a new opportunity. It has to be the government.The government. The government.

A month before we were forced out of the office by our American owners, I did pass my resume to a government agency, this time as a CARP Junior Analyst. I checked the status of my application with them and they told me that the position was put on hold. Sad. I said to the girl behind the desk that I wanted to know and it's okay for me to know that somebody with influence got the job. She said that the job was really put on hold. Okay. Then I shut up.

Tom Cruise wants an adaptation

2008-08-19T18:15:00.000-07:00

Buoyed by the recent good fortunes of Iron Man and Batman, Tom Cruise is looking at the possibility of having his own adaptation. And he has found it in 'Sleeper' and he will partner with Sam Raimi to produce the movie.

Tom Cruise is connected with the United Artists studio together with long time partner Paula Wagner, but the actor is not exclusive to the studio. This past few weeks the name of the actor have been linked to three future movies and that includes the 'Sleeper' and the comedy 'Food Fight'.

Shaft

2008-08-13T18:37:00.000-07:00

The voice behind the theme from 'Shaft' was found dead by relatives. His career started as a songwriter and producer for Stax Records in Memphis, and his best compositions while in the recording company includes the 'Soul Man'.But his breakout song as a performer was the songs from the Hot Buttered Soul album and his participation in 'Shaft' movie with his 'Theme from Shaft'. The theme won an Oscar and his performance at the Academy Awards made him a household name.

I heard that theme when I watched the version of Shaft that starred Samuel L. Jackson.

Talk with cats, make love with spirits

2008-08-13T18:35:00.000-07:00

In one interview, Haruki Murakami said that the key in understanding the novel is to read it multiple times. The novel he's talking about is Kafka on the Shore, the novel that I am re-reading right now. The first time I read the novel, I thought I was really reading a fantasy novel. Talking cats, falling fishes from the sky and making love with a spirit aren't exactly my usual reading fare before. But then I continued on reading the book and along the way learned to known more about the author, his genre and slightly as well, the meaning of the novel. For the first few paragraphs, I discovered that chapters are alternated, one in the world of Kafka Tamura and the other chapter deals with things about Nakata. Still haven't found the answer why an alternating treatment of the two protaginist is needed and I bet a deeper explanation is needed, or I guess I'm just over-complicating things? That's one reason why I want to re-read the book, just what the author ordered.

Jobless

2008-06-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

A number of things happened to me this past week. I lost my job, bought my own Acer Aspire laptop, looking for jobs out there. I am looking for 'real jobs' out there, not the one I have now. Right now, I am a bit busy with my freelance jobs. It's enough, but of course I am looking for security and something that can provide me an opportunity for professional growth.

Filler

2008-05-13T23:12:00.000-07:00

Because my 'flight' every day takes 2 hours at least on the road, I have to make sure that I'm always entertained. The first few months in the job was an eye-opener for me when I'm on the road. A lot of things happened, especially after that super typhoon. Intriguing things happen on the road, a lot of accidents happened as well. I thought with the entry of 2008, bad things will start to go away on the roads, but it isn't the case. Cullat area is still flooded. The water was supposed to flow on Busay's own version of the falls. But when the province was inundated with rains two or three months ago, a landslide happened somewhere in Cullat. A portion of the hill, I believed broke down. Water took a detour and instead of flowing towards the usual route going to the falls, the water suddenly made a U-turn on the place of the landslide. This means that houses there is directly on the path of the current. When it rained two weeks non-stop, houses near the area are flooded to the roofs. The national highway is flooded as well; the highway looks like a river. In fact whenever it rains, water flows from the hills then it cuts the highway and slowing traffic to a crawl. About a month ago, on the curve just after crossing the bridge in Busay near the falls, a coca-cola delivery truck crashed and bottles and cases were thrown and were crushed as well. The next night of my travel, somebody told me that a candle was seen lighted on the scene. The driver was killed in an instant. Just a year ago, a jeepneys collided near the bridge. Seems like these things are a weird backdrop to what happened to the area after the typhoon. Houses were wiped out, trees were uprooted. The place is empty.
There goes my 21st post.

Sharapova Poses After All

2008-05-13T01:03:00.001-07:00

After all that been said and done, Sharapova agreed for a shortened date with the camera. It was a compromise of sorts between the world number 2, and the WTA. With her decision, she saved herself from paying a hefty fine.

Mad World; Tears for Fears and the 80s

2008-05-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

I know that Tears for Fears is a dated 80s band. I know this band before, since my cousin is one of those fans of 80s pop and rock icons. His cabinet is full of cassete tapes collected over the years. Right now, he collects pirated concert DVDs and one of the artist that he liked is Tears for Fears. I never paid attention to this band. But things changed when I did my Smallville marathon two or three months ago.I think that the episode where a Tears for Fears song was played was on a season 2 episode. I remember that the song was being played while Clark Kent was all alone in his place of solitude, on the cave. Then song starts to stream in. I know from that moment that the song is eeriely familiar but I can't seem to locate where and when I first heard it. It took me a few days to continously hum the song, and I made a few research over the net. After some time, I came to learn the fact that the song was from Tears for Fears. It was totally different from the original one, but you know instantly that this is way better than the original!

It was revealed that the Mad World song was intended as a b-side for Tears for Fears second single, Pale Shelter. When I first heard the song over Smallville, I thought how appropriate. It literally frames the scene, the mood and the condition of Clark Kent. Truly, we are living in a mad world. In fact, I even made my own twisted interpretation, ahem as always making Mad World a song for me. That the song talsk about the insensivity of the people around us and the growing alienation that we encounter as day goes by. But no matter how deep I and you go, the writers of the song says otherwise, Roland Orzabal said;

Lyrically the song is pretty loose. It throws together a lot of different images
to paint a picture without saying anything specific about the world

Added Curt Smith;

It's very much a voyeur's song. It's looking out at a mad world from the eyes of
a teenager.

I learned as well that the song was covered by Gary Jules for Donnie Darko. I need to watch the film. Anyone has a copy of the movie? If the Mad World original is full of 80s fingerprints like synthesizers and percussions, the Jules version was stripped bare with piano and cello taking stage. I checked some info regarding the movie, and it seems that the movie is great as well.

Utah Ties; Fit N Rite Coming

2008-05-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

This is trouble; what is supposed to be a walk in the park for Lakers (from my perspective) has turned into brawl with Kobe getting bruised- ego and all. The Utah ties the series by virtue of an overtime win, 123-115.This isn't just trouble for Lakers you know. I'm in trouble as well. I know, laugh all you want, and I can see that this will go the long way. I was really hoping that Lakers seals this in 6 or less. But at the rate things are going, 6 games is getting dimmer and dimmer by the day. Utah's Kirilenko has this to say;

We never have any doubts in our confidence

Bryant who is troubled early on with back spasm finished with 33 points and offered no mea culpas.

No excuses for me. (Kirilenko) did a great job. They did a terrific job. They did big plays when they needed to.

So there.

Time Check

2008-05-10T22:21:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is supposed to be a hectic work week. Got some real work to do. And a few more months and I am marking my second year in the office. By weekend, our group is supposed to have a team building. I have already paid for my transpo fare, and I hope that the parish didn't set the seminar this weekend as well. There's no way I can convince either party to give way. Other updates:
~ still waiting for cam. sur
~desperately seeking the leg ofc

So the options in two months: stay and continue pulling in a token savings or go for it, yet again where things are favorable and options are better.

Yeah?

2008-05-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

Amen to this post.

Iron Man Pockets $98 M in 3 Days!

2008-05-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

They all thought that Iron Man will opened big and projections are pegged at $75 M. But it wasn't meant to be. The movie opened big time and in the next three days, the movie has pocketed $98.6 million! This was a huge debut for the film and of course, greatly exceeded expectations.

Rafa Takes Fourth Barcelona Crown

2008-05-05T18:23:00.000-07:00

So it continues. The dominance of Rafael Nadal continues on clay. Ferrer of Spain is the latest prey of Nadal on the dirt with a three set win. I thought Nadal can win it all without dropping a set, but it seems that Rafa is human after all. Rafa ceded the second set, 4-6 to Ferrer but came back strongly to finish the third set. It was his fourth Barcelona title, after winning his fourth Monte Carlo crown. Now, another title is within his grasp as he is the prohibitive favorite to win Rome Masters. Any bet?

The Factor

2008-05-02T23:40:00.000-07:00

One of the things that I enjoy watching is newscast and news-related shows. I always find joy in watching people debate and twist each other's words in order to make a new idea and to float an opinion. Talk shows 'show' different perspectives on how we should look at things. And that's what I like about these shows. On local tv, I usually go for these talk shows and comedy shows and that's the reason why I watch the two local channels. Other than that, I shift to HBO, Star Movies, Star World and Cinema One for my viewing pleasures. But right now, I distanced myself from newscast on local tv because of the sensationalism and the low quality of reporting and low quality of news- news that only make me depressed. One anchor that I liked way back then was from ANC, she's Karmina Constantino. She's the only anchor that I liked. Right now, since I am usually online and my online source of news is google/news, I learned to follow the US Presidential elections. I discovered two great hosts. There's Bill O'Reilly of the O'Reilly Factor and Greta Van Susteren. I like the way they delivered their news. In fact I often tune in to Foxnews every once in a while, just to see how things develop in the hotly contested Democratic primaries.

Century Mark For Rafa

2008-05-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

Oh? Another Rafa post even on my other blog? Ooopps sorry for this one. Hobbies and faves run deep. Anyway after winning his record fourth Monte Carlo title, Rafa competes in Barcelona. This is closest to home so why question Rafa's motives no? Rafa is in the third round now and has won his 100th victory in clay courts in 101 tries. The only minor blip happens last year when Federer defeated Rafa at the Hamburg final. But anyway, his record is amazing but I won't get carried away just yet. I just read that the best record in the surface is owned by Chris Evert. Chris Evert has a 197-1 record on clay! Now that's a record. So can Rafa exceed that record by Chris Evert? I highly doubt that but I will be happy if I am proven wrong. What is important right now for Rafa is to continue winning and win Barcelona, get to Hamburg and win Roland Garros for the fourth time! But the way clay events are scheduled right now, it seems that its a tricky road ahead. But I firmly stands in the sidelines, clapping for any Rafa win in the surface. Go Rafa!

Byers Brooke White

2008-05-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

I expected this one, and yes finally the voters of American Idol junked my precious Brooke. There's no one to blame. After starting really good on AI, Brooke suddenly lost control and her past performances wasn't that good. Okay, that was bad. So who's left? Of course there's the crowd favorite David Archuleta and David Cook, plus Syesha Mercedo and he one that isn't supposed to be there, well at least for me, Jason Castro. There's an interesting explanation why Jason Castro slipped unnoticed into the top four:

Must be the girls love his locks.

Correct. Please vote him out next.
I miss Carly and Brooke.
Okay. It's time to prepare and go home again.

Carly Gets Booted Out?!

2008-04-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

One of my fave on the current edition of American Idol finally bid goodbye. I didn't expect Carly to say goodbye, just yet. In fact I braced myself for the departure of Brooke White. Though talented, it seems that she started to unravel going deep into the competition. I still like Brooke and like her personality. But the way she performs- on the safe side, I just think that she may fail to barge the top3, leaving favorites- the two Davids to duke it out.

So with the departure of Carly Smithson, I am left with Brooke and David A. Watching the idol contest will be less electric from hereon. By the way, this is the first time that I followed American Idol and I am thinking if I will continue doing so. They eliminate one of the better singers in the batch.

Not my day..

2007-07-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

Not feelin well today..kanina pa to. ewan ko pa, parang sakit ng ulo ngaung araw.lam mo yung feelin na parang laging bagong untog ang ulo mo.? Yun, ganun ang nararamdamand ko ngaun.ewan ko, psychosomatic ata to..ehhehe..self inflicted, o dahil inisip ko kanina na baka masakit ulo ko, kaya sumakit ulo ko. anyway, sa mga ganitong moments -naks talagang moments- pinakikinggan ko si Enya. I play Only Time tapos ung isang single nya, Only If.Nyc songs.

Happy weekend to me

2007-06-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

Thank god for another day.Thank god for another week! Im still thankful that a few friend of mine remembers me. Waaaaa.Anyway, they will remember me.I am still their classmate, the one who has been President or VP of the class from Grade 1 to Fourth Year HS.Imagine that, dami pala ako nauto during that time.hehehe.Ten years of being a politico, now Im a trapo pala! Anyway what is the point of this entry? Thanks to my friend who texted me kanina.Ey, madi salamat po.Yeah, Im still here =) I know you will read this entry.Ano pa ba? Hmm..Just met the quota today.Kakatamad gumawa.Just surfed the net and relaxed.And again, its nice.The week has ended.Thank u lord..

2007-06-14T21:09:00.000-07:00

Naalala ko pala nun, may imahe kami nung sacred heart dati sa bahay.Pero ngayon wala na ata, nasira siguro kaya ayun nakita ko sa likod ng bahay.Si papa pa naman ng nagstart ng devotion na yun, anyway hope makahanap ulit kami ng ganung image.para naman, may guide din kami sa haus, kailangan kse talaga yan.tingan mo ako, pag may problema lng saka nakaka alala.anyway di pa naman huli ang lahat di ba? by the way, naalala ko to, kse nag surf ako kanina at eto ang isang napuntahan koyung tungkol sa sacred heart http://www.truecatholic.org/sacredheart.htm

Five basic things that you should know about me

2007-06-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

1 Im a retired drinker.yes,i admit to that fact that i was once an alcoholic, and i both love and hate that time.syet.i can still distinctly remember, it was my bday, my 21st bday i think and the bday of my two pals aged 30plus. we had an inuman session, and Bacchus will not be happy.more than 14 bottles of napoleon brandy littered the pavement the next day.by the way were 7 or 8 i think.

2 Im interested in politics, elections and anything that is related to the government.

3 im into crossword puzzles, especially those from the inquirer.no, i cant solve them all.what's the challenge if you can solve it all, right? hmm..siguro mga 10 percent lng nun kaya ko.hahaha

4 Im a sentimentalist.wait, may word ba na ganun? ahaha..madali din pala ako mapikon.

5 Finally, i think im paranoid.

P.S.
Thanks to my three readers, yeah that's you yona, tala and marianne.Hmm about the suggestion that I add two more entries on my list, here it goes:

6 Martir.Primera Klase.Hahaha.You know the drift.

7 And finally, what can i say...corny po talaga ako.La na tayo magagawa dyan.C'mon admit it guys, natatawa naman ako minsan di ba? =)

Awit Ng Barkada

2007-06-13T00:12:00.000-07:00

Nakasimangot ka na lang palagi
Parang ikaw lang ang nag-mamay-ari
Ng lahat ng sama ng loob

Pagmumukha mo ay hindi maipinta
Nakalimutan mo na bang tumawa
Eh, sumasayad na ang nguso mo sa lupa

[refrain]
Kahit sino pa man ang may kagagawan
Ng iyong pagkabigo
Ang isipin na lang na ang buhay
Kung minsan ay nagbibiro
Nandidito kami ang barkada mong tunay aawit sa iyo
Sa lungkot at ligaya, hirap at ginhawa
Kami’y kasama mo

Kung sa pag-ibig may pinag-awayan
Kung salapi ay huwag ng pag-usapan
Tayo’y ‘di nagbibilangan

Kung ang problema mo’y nagkatambakan
At mga utang ‘di na mabayaran
Lahat ng bagay ay nadadaan sa usapan

[repeat refrain]

Kung hahanapin ay kaligayahan
Maging malalim o may kababawan
Sa iyo ay may nakalaan

Kami’y asahan at huwag kalimutan
Maging ito ay madalas o minsan
Pagkat iba na nga ang may pinagsamahan

Kasama mo
Kasama mo
Kasama mo

( Apo Hiking Society )

Ganda naman talaga ng kanta.Tsk.Very re-assuring, telling you na no matter what happens to you, andyan ang barkada mo to back you up.God, I miss them.Wait..Sino nga ba barkada ko? hahaha..Sa totoo lang, wala naman talaga ako a fixed set of barkadas..Hehehe.Hmm. Marami kse akong circle of friends.Anyway, siguro yung mga pinsan ko na lng,yun talaga ang F4.Syet.Ey, di ibig sabihin na okay looks namin ahh..It maybe a misnomer, F4 is just an obvious label to use, since we are four in the group.What's the purpose of this? Wala naman.Naghahanap lang ng support group,a nd I found none.Support for what, perhaps you may ask.Wag na.Kulit eh. Basta.Maganda siguro if your barkada not is not just there during good times, but during bad times as well.Sigh.

Damn if you do, damn if you dont.

2007-06-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

Whosoever is delighted in solitude is either a wild beast or a god.

I think this quote is attributed to one of my fave authors. And I dont know if I must agree with her or not, but nonetheless it strikes a nerve. Wallowing and despair and loving solitude-thats me, so im a wild beast now, Miss Rand?

An ode to my friend

2007-06-12T17:24:00.000-07:00

Miss you.You know how much I miss you.Remember the days when after class hours, I usually go to Sarah's just to have you? Or remember those days when, lunch without was you never that good? Ahh..those were the days when, together with Stephen andPatrick, we usually drive over to Katips just to get a platter of sisig and rice and ..you, before settling in front of 143.Damn, those days were gone! Where are you now? Miss you.Just give me sometime and we will hang out again, to relieve those days..

Some are smarter than the others

2007-06-12T02:14:00.000-07:00

Some are smarters than the others they say. If I remember it right, Imelda Marcos says that, in one of her interviews, I just forgot where and the circumstances of the interview. Anyway, that is life nowadays.Eh kung papa-tay patay ka, ala talaga mangyayari sayo.Parang variation lang naman nyan nung saying na, alang manloloko kung walang magpapaloko, right? Life is short, and I dont want to dwell on this one, Ill just enjoy the remaining "days" of my life.Haha

The end is the beginning is the end

2007-06-12T00:17:00.000-07:00

The end is the beginning is the end.Its like we are going in circles, aren't we? You think life likes that? That life is indeed a circle? I dont know. Are we suppose to get out of that circle, or do we forever be a sad dot within the circle, following its movements, from the lowest rung, then we go up, then slowly descending, then boom! we hit the bottom-but don't look now, we are now nearing again the top! Forgive my babble here.I just want to write and to write for no audience.If I want to satisfy my audience, then I will use my other blog.But this space, this space is for my thoughts alone.